| "Left alone, once again."
It was a Monday night and I had just gotten home. As I walk in the door I see my dad lying on floor. Immediately my heart begins to pound, such and ache in my stomach I've never felt before over comes me and I begin to cry. I check to see if he is breathing. Just barely, almost as if he'd been waiting for something. I call 911, and as I wait I begin to talk to my dad, telling him everything. As I stare into his weakened face, every memory flashes before me. I could feel nothing, no emotions ran through me. Only a sense of emptiness, like someone took everything inside my body away, never to see it again. "Why me?" I cry out. I try to wake him, but he's almost gone. I lay my head on his chest and listen to that beat I once had memorized. He was my one and only, always there for me in a different sort of way.
I see and empty bottle of whiskey on the floor beside him. Such anger overcomes me, and I begin to beat upon his chest, telling him to wake up. I stop in pure catharsis, and in my sorrow I whisper, "How could you do this to me?" I stroke his cheek and tell him I love him. A tear drips upon his face, and I see his breathes become few.
All of a sudden his eyes begin to open, just slightly. He looks at me and smiles. Tears begin to fill his eyes, and as he squeezes my hand he says, "My precious little girl.. look at you, you're so beautiful. Don't take this hard, just know that I'm going to be happy now." I cry harder, begging him to stay, to fight. And as he suspires his last, he stares into my eyes and softly says these words, "I love you, forever and always babe."
And in my sullen voice I sing him our song,
"Blue skies, smilin at me.
Nothin but blue skies, do I see.
Blue birds, singin a song.
Nothin but blue birds, all day long.
Blue days.. all of them gone,
Nothin but blue skies.. from now on."
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